It’s a start
Posted by on January 30, 2012
I kept my website up and running for as long as I did because, in the grand scheme of things, the $4.99 a month hosting charge was not breaking the bank. I told myself that I was keeping it open because I have plans to return to work. The problem I had was in the making of a definitive statement as to when. After a period of time, $4.99 a month began to represent so much more than the promise to return to a lucrative career. It became a constant reminder that I had something hanging over my head – a promise I wasn’t keeping. Ugh.
I’m 40-years-old and a chronic procrastinator. I can find a million-and-one reasons to put something off for another day. Granted being four weeks away from delivering a beautiful bouncing baby boy is a pretty good reason to put some things on the back burner – beginning with my business. Ironically, it’s a business I started after having my daughter 11 years ago. I was determined to stay home with her and being a single mom made that very challenging but I found a way.
Fast forward to 2008 when I moved from Chattanooga, TN to Urbana, OH to become a wife and stepmother to two beautiful girls and that also seemed like a pretty good reason to entertain that “I’ll return to work as soon as x, y, and z happen” excuse. That brings us to three years my business has done nothing more than merely hold its place on the world wide web.
Today I decided enough is enough. I closed up shop. In my heart I feel it is only temporary. I am determined to stay home with my son after he’s born. I cannot do that if I do not make an income. We’ll be a family of six and while we learn every day how to budget and cut corners, we have to be realistic – Ramen Noodles does not a healthy, nutritious meal make.
I am unsure what to do with myself at this point. It’s quite liberating to actually make a decision and follow through. I think I’ll just relax and let the ideas flow. I’ve got some time. Already I feel more at ease without that reminder looming overhead that I have things out there left unresolved. Imagine that. 
